When it Rains

I miss you
when the rain start pouring
usually you’ll keep me warm
you’ll keep me in your embrace
you’ll sooth my fragile body
chasing away those chilly air that’s hitting me

When I started trembling
as the thunder hit my senses
you’ll tighten your grip on my waist
then kissed the crown of my head
whispering sweet words for me
to makes my tensed shoulder; relaxed

As the rain keeps pouring mercilessly
you ensure me that I’m safe by your side
occasionally kissing my bare neck and shoulder
your slender finger made me feeling sweet shudder
you tangled your strong feet with my feet
increasing both of our body heat

But now, you’re gone
no one would hold me when it rains
I’ll left alone in the dark
the chilly air would hit me, coldly
the thunder would kick me, harshly
the rain would keep pouring, mercilessly

I hate it when it rains
because it reminds me of you
of how much that I loved you

And I still do…


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a short poem that I made when the rain was pouring hard in the midnight sky
oh well, blame me and my raging hormones
it's not happening in my real life
don't need to be freaked out =.=

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Happy Upcoming Birthday, Sweety

as the title said
I'm posting an entry about birthday

who's birthday?
mine had passed, along with my sweety Amani
so, who's another 'sweety'?

oh yeah, here's the latter said
there's two of them

21 December 1993





apadia? hensem?
err err err, okay =.=

Nazrul Asyraf b Razlee, selamat menyambut hari tua lanaa =)
semoga anda terus membesar dengan sihat

dia sapa?
hmm, dia ni...
kawan yang aku boleh consider sbg abang
tapi maw nak tgk, aku matured lg =.=
dia? childish >.<


23 December 1993





okay, yang ni sapa kata x comel aku nak tenyeh mulut dgn cabai!
hok ni, kazen feveret aku
merangkap BFF aku yang paling... *tataw nak kata apa*

dgn dia, aku jadi lain
tapayah tanya lain yang gena, hangpa buleh teka aeh makalau hangpa dok tengok perangai aku dok lagu mana dah =P

Fatin Izzati bt Zainol, happy birthday naa sayang
makalau nak hadiah, meh cium pipi dulu
baru dapat! >.<


20 December 2011 <-- tarikh hari ni




thehehe, gambaq kek ni utk hgpa lanaa
actually, aku lapaq kek, pastu p laa beli taksat nehh
then, kak tu tnya nak tulis apa-2 tak
pastu tiba-2 teringat yang birthday hangpa 2 dah dekat
so... tanpa segan silunya aku pon tulis laa bnda nehh =P

kek ni? utk aku sorang! =P
kalo nak, Encik Nazrul, sila balik Perlis
dan Cik Fatin pulak, sila balik rumah

tapi aku boleh jamin
dalam 2 hari, hangpa buleh tgk talam jelah =.=
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groaning =.=

I had my Microsoft Word page opened up
and I had this blog "posting" site too
*sigh =.=
now, where's my idea to keep writing that stupid english novel huh?!?!?!

I have to admit that I already know how the story gonna ends
and it's not going to be so soon
but somehow, I didn't know how to keep the story on track
like
  • what's gonna happen after this chapter? (even though I've arranged the plots and the story line)
  • am I gonna write it like a professional author, or just like a high school girl finishing her teacher's homework?
  • am I gonna rushed it to the ending, and leave behind all the pleasure while writing? (since I really love writing!)
  • do I need to kick my ass so that I can began writing now?
*sorry, yeah I'm a vulgar words user. wanna fight about that? =.=

aish, better go take a bath and start writing now!



*****

well, you see
I might be being a bitch telling you this
but still, I'm sorry but I don't give a fuck to what you're thinking of me

I might be leaving you in curiosity, wanting to read my crappy not-so-english novel
but I'm really, really sorry <-- I meant it. I can't let any of you to read it
it's too personal and I don't think that most all of you gonna like it
*don't ask me how, but I just knew it. u see, u guys are not so hard to be predicted =.=
and don't give me that puppy eyes to beg me (as if!) if so, then I might be deleting all my piece of work and you do know that I'm not gonna be happy about it!

yes, I'm selfish!

but for once in my life, just let me be the idiot one just to make you guys clear. I love you guys so much that I don't mind hurting myself for you


I need to go now, wanna pee =P

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desperation (?)

aish, desperate? about what, Cik Dayah?
yeah yeah, kau bukan terdesak tapi tersedak (chocked) =.=

cuti skolah dah nak abeh, tp tusyen hg x pi LANGSUNG!
wahwahwah, baguih lanaa >.<
macam laa result hang baguih sgt, stakat nak buleh A kering dalam BM, BI, PI, SEJ tu watpa?
org nak tgk BIO, FIZIK, KIMIA and ADDMATH laa syg oii
*tp yg tu laa yg hg fucked up, kan? =.=
baguih, taon depan maw nak melolong nazak mintak oksigen, p daftar masuk KMC





tapi takpa, Cik Dayah
tetap aku sayang hang gila-2 sbb hang maw jugak prektis BI hg yg berteraboq tuhh
*saya tulish novel English.*winkwink* ^_^
tapayah risau, aku x bagi sapa-2 baca aeh
itu novel, personal sgt-2 >.<

hah, sudah
tapayah dok mengarut banyak sgt
okbai, nak sambung tulish novel~~~ <3
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hari amek buku teks

so, hari ni Cik Dayah p amek buku teks Form 5 kat skolah
*ketaq pala lutuit ahh nak SPM taon dpan >.<

pkai jeans, t-shirt, shawl, snicker and my lovely handbag

*macam nak p shopping pulakk =P

aish, apepon buku teks tu slamat dibawak balik ke rumah =3

jumpa Farisha, Adilla, Dek Yan, Zahira and lain-2
apa? Najwa dgn Amani?
hmm, Najwa p lewat sbb adik dia kalut nak ikut sama =.=
Amani pulak smpat jmpa sat, tu pon selisih masa nak balik :'(

I'm not sad, I'm not sad, I'm not sad...! okay, maybe I'm just a little bit unhappy :(

so, today I'm a bit disappointed and sad
tapolah, lain kali buleh jmpa lg kan =]

okbai

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keluaq malam

tadi p teman Kak Ila keluaq p cari makan
ambuih, pakat kena beletiaq aeh
mentang-2 ni first time Cik Dayah nak keluaq malam >.<

aahaha, kami naik motor even hujan
p melilau kok pekan kangaq, tataw nak makan tang mana, nak makan apa
aish, last-2 p kat Taman Sena punya "food court" jaa =..=
Cik Dayah yg dah dinner ni pon tambah lg 1 meal =P
*peruit luas bak kata Tin Toi

bayangkan ni pekan Kangaq, mmg x jumpa rumah laa kami dok melilau =.=





woot-2! >.<
remind me to wear something thick whenever I keluaq malam naa syg
I was freezing while covered over thin fabric =.=
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bittersweet truth...?

the thing is
they said that students who got no. 25 and above will have to move to 5SN2 in 2012
well, lucky me that I got no. 28, right? =..=

a part of me was jumping happily
well, being able to step out from BJ class is one of my dreams since Form 1, syg
plus, I can be in the same class with my beloved-beastbest-friend-ever-so-cliche
*yeah, that Najwa Wajihah. wanna fight about it? =P
and I also can go back early since there's no BJ
*or maybe not because of kelas anjal. but hey, still NO BJ!!! >.<

oh yeah, the excitement is sooo cannot be seen here >.<


another part of me? well, she was... sobbing. hysterically, I means =(
breaking promises is not one of her favorite
and it kills her inside knowing that her friends is probably gonna ditch her away once she step away from them
*err, hyperbola? =..=
still, that thought is haunting her, badly T_T

I can list all the good and bad things about this class re-shuffle thing
but hey, it is a pain when the naked truth is u're not gonna stick to ur beloved friends who'd grown to be ur siblings, kan?
well, it's a pain in my ass right now =.=

I can't write anymore, feels like I'm gonna burst into crying out load for God's sake!
but hey, crying in the middle of the night in front of ur lappy is SO NOT COOL AT ALL!
so yeah, I'll end it here and sob later =P



well, it's after all a bittersweet truth. right? :')
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shopping!

hari ni, Cik Dayah p shopping!
hahha, x pi jauh mana ponn, Tesco Mergong jaa =.=

mulanya nak p amek Kak Noni kat Shahab Perdana
pastu abah ajak p makan dekat-2 dengan Tesco
pastu anak manja ni merengek nak p food court Tesco, kononnya nak makan sizzling noodle (?)
*padahal tamaw ponn =P

dah pekena nasi goreng pataya, mulalah nak p window shopping
plan asal nak beli shawl, pastu tadak yang berkenan =(
pastu ingat nak beli baju, seksi sangat laa pulak >.<
last-2, beli kasuit teruih! =D



thehehehehehe =P
dah Tin Toi beli snicker, Cik Dayah pon nak beli jugak lahh >.<

dan ya, tu jaa yang Cik Dayah beli
tadak mood nak shopping betoi-2 =.=
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setelah sekian lama...

don't even ask me why
I just wanna write
I just wanna express, something that's I've been neglecting lately

so guys, dah sebulan lebih eak aku biaq belog aku ni bersawang?
hmm, nak buat gena
malaih nak update =.=

err, apa crita aku cuti sekolah ni?
tadok laa abnormal sangat, besa-2 jaa
  • jatuh tangga 2 kali dalam masa 5 hari
  • demam seminggu
  • terkunci dalam bilik masa lari amek tudung, pastu tinggal lauk dalam kuali, nasib x hangit =.=
  • tidoq x tentu hala, bangun tengah malam nak makan ubat
  • oh ya, rasanya berat aku dah naik dalam 2 kg cuti 2 minggu ni O.o
oh yeah, sayang
nothing special =.=

then, absorbed in reading english novel! (which explain why I haven't been writing, mostly because I've been reading a lot (?) eak )
dan saya bukan peminat kedai buku, so semuanya online sajaa <3

has been attending Cikgu Bisma's tuition for the past 4 days, tomorrow gonna be the last class T_T
aww~ going to miss all my friends and my 'Ummi'






and oh yeah, I wanna share this quote that I've been loving so much after I've read one of those hundreds of novels this past 2 weeks =)





see, it's pretty isn't it? (>.<)
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kelmarin addmath, hari ni fizik, esok apa tah? =.=

ya ya ya
minggu ni minggu exam =.=

adoiyai, taw dak yg slama ni Cik Dayah x prnah peduli pon pasal exam?
haa, ni laa nak habaq mai
Cik Dayah takuit ketaq pala lutuit time public exam sajaa
hok yg skolah pnya ni x pikiaq apa ponn =P

tp kan, Cik Iman dgn Cik Nisa laa yg dok suruh Cik Dayah study gila-2
depa laa yg dok beletiaq bagai nak mati
yg lain lain lain pon da la gak yg dok beletiaq
tp time Iman dgn Nisa suruh, mmg otometik rasa mcm nak study =3

okay! kelmarin exam addmath derr
ADDMATH laa syg =.=
nah, pics

u see the books? =.=

Su: Najwa, nmpak bku aku x?
Najwa: taktau-2, p main jauh-2

*pose gadis ayu >.<

Najwa: weyy, p study nuhh. esok-2 laa plak nak amek gambaq ponn!

even calculator pon taleh nak cari jawapan =.=

Amani: wey Tirah, yg ni wat cemana tataw?

Tirah: ni, mai kami nak habaq naa ...

*hafal formula o.O

*the chaotic (?) class

ini cover saja maa >.<

Su: sudah-2 laa nak amek gambaq tuhh, p study laa! >.<

*ouh, nak kena posing chumey-2 nehh <3

*aargh! aku tamaw masuk belog hang!

Nisa: Dayah, mai kertas graf sikit
Dayah: ok, but mai nak amek gambaq sikit
Nisa: *cover dgn buku
Dayah: okay, model buku addmath masuk belog >.<


haa, hok tu cerita kelmarin
pergh, aku tidoq jugak time exam tuhh =.=
soklan susah kott, dah nama pon addmath kan =P

hari ni? FIZIK lanaa =.=
aku nak eja fizik dlm english pon x reti-2 lg
asyik eja PHISYCS jaa, ngek kan =.=

nak, gambaq hari ni
tp x bnyak sgt, pasal kaluit nak study beb =D

Amani: errgh! study study study~

o.O

*terlalu tension =.=

okfine, anda comel >.<

Amani: err, boleh dak saya jawab exam tgk buku, ckg? =]

*again, the chaotic class =.=


*apa?

Amani: ouh takpa-2, fizik senang sajaa >.<

 
penyelamat =.=
haish, subjek-2 kritikal utk mggu ni dah habess
esok, math jaa pon =D
seronok kot nak hentam esok >.<

oh ya, lupa nak habaq
Cik Dayah dgn nombor takbuleh dok sekali
dia jd ngokngek sikit =.=

*gambaq saya takdak, sbb saya laa tukang snap =.=

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merajuk itu comel :)

ya sayang, status itu untuk awak :)

bila nak post pasal merajuk ni kan
aku rasa semua org brhak nak rasa mrajok

kalo dulu, pndangan aku psal mrajuk ni
ialah org yg childish n craving 4 attention
ntah laa, maybe sbb aku dulu cmtu laa kot =P

tp, bila dah makin membesar <-- eh-2 =P
aku rasa, mrajok tu satu method utk kita gtaw kat org yg kita rajuk-kan tu
supaya x wat dah bnda yg wat kita mrajuk <-- paham dak ayat berbelit? o.O

hmm, smakin tahun
smakin aku rasa merajuk tu sesuatu yg comel!

kan? :)

kalau budak kecik-2 merajuk, mcm senang je nak pujuk kan?
alaa, rasuah ja dgn coklat ke apa, lama-2 ok laa tuhh
but actually, dia akan ingat saaampai laa dia betoi-2 nak lupakannya :)
*aku taw laa sbb aku pun dulu cmtu =P
time org rasuah apa-2, aku kebas. but tetap jugakk aku dendam. tp lama-2 mmg aku lupa, but time dok tulis bnda ni aku ingat balik >.<

seronok taw kalo merajuk!
ada org tlg pujukkan
ada org yg fikir ttg kita
n kita nmpak jelas yg org tu pedulikan kita
kita nampak sgt bahawa kita ni org yg pnting bg dia =)

n bg org yg nak kena pujuk tu pulakk
ada 2 kategori jaa

1. Pujuk paksa
fesyen ni jenis nak pujuk sebab mmg kena pujuk. rasa x ikhlas gilaa-2 sebab nak kena wat bnda yg kta x suka kan! jenis ni bnyak, but slalunya depa ni pujuk sbb x tahan nak layan rajuk. so, dari biaq merajok lama-2, biaq dia pujuk kan?

2. Pujuk manja
nah, jenis ni mmg rare! kira limited edition laa. jenis yg pujuk sambil nak manjakan org yg dipujuk. mcm pelik jaa kan bunyi dia? hahha, jenis ni x bnyak sbb slalunya jenis org yg humor jaa pakai method nehh. dia nak pujuk, tp dia sronok tgk org tu mrajuk. so dia usik org tu smpai laa org tu naik meluat nak merajok lg dahh~ thehehehehe, comel kan? >.<



hah, sudah lanaa
lagi lama aku mngarut, lg bnyak yg aku mrepek =.=
post ni untuk sapa?
x ditujukan utk sapa-2 =3 <-- satgi dok wat sesi merasa pulakk =.=
just, baru sedar yg merajuk tu sesuatu yg comel sgt! >.<

haish, bila tataw aku pulak nak tarik muncung >.<
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X-File revealed!

OMG, patut laa hri ni aku gelak bagai tadak esok
patut laa aku buli abah aku pagi td <-- ngada-2 =P
patut laa... mmg patut laa sgt-2 =.=

hah, apodia X-File tuhh?
ni, mai nak habaq sat naa






td kan kan kan
Amani, Athirah, Dibah, Atikah dgn Cik Dayah dok laa sembang-2
*time addmath tuhh =.=
hah, si cerdik Amani pi bukak cerita pasal kisah silam aku laa pulakk >.<

dia kata apa?
dia kata, dulu dia cemuih, menyampah, tak suka gila-2 kat aku =.=
pasepa? tanya laa dia sndri
x kuasa aku nak jawab =P

tp kan, pelik sgt-2 kan
selalunya, bila org dok crita psal aib kisah masa silam yg kta sndri tamaw ingat
kita akan melenting, kan?
tp aku? aku GELAK skali dgn depa beb! O.o
waahahahaha, aku pon x caya =D

tgh dok sibuk gelakkan dri sndri
ada laa jgak ayat-2 yg menghiris kalbu
pergh, tetap jugakk aku gelak =P
*pergh, psikopat gilaa =.=
whatever, janji depa hepi, aku pon hepi jaa =)

hah, berbalik kpd kisah si Amani
dia kata dulu dia benci gila-2 kat aku! >.<
*even bnda-2 kcik yg aku x ingat, dia ingat beb! O.o
pergh, benci sgt ka? meh nak teriak sikit T^T

ok, continue!~

Amani?
dia benci aku... dulu
dia menympah dgn aku... dri dulu smpai laa skrg! =P
dia meluat dgn aku... smpai bila-2 =.=
tp aku x kisah! =)

sebab?

sebab kami dah macam ni!

sebab kami dah rapat!

err, sebab kami dah married kat fb? O.o

hmm, x kisahlah sebab apa ponn
yg pastinya, aku x kisah ttg kebencian dia kat aku dulu tuhh
sebab apa?
hahha, sbb se-annoying dia tara mana ponn
aku x pernah benci dia! =)
*baik kan Cik Dayah nehh? =3

dia? sahabat saya
betapa cela dia menyilaukan mata saya
betapa sikap dia menampar saya
tetap, saya tangkis =)
*nah, amek hang ayat sastera aku =P

post ni actually kesinambungan dari post yang ini
Amani, sayang saya tak? =3
*ok, geli =.=

ahh! what a beautiful thing friendship is, kan? =)

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shopping time

tadi kan kan kan
Cik Dayah n fmly p laa shopping kat Tesco Mergong
adess, letih gilaa =.=

*yg ni sblm p, mmg eksaited gila-2 laa kan =.=

apa yg dibeli?
hmm, sabaq sat nak tunjuk naa =)

*amacam? kaw-2 tak =3
pergh, berat kot nak tolak bnda nehh!
apa? sapa nak kena tolak?
sapa lagi kalo bukan Cik Dayah =.=

hmm, nah laa sikit lg gmbaq yg ada
x smpat nak snap-2, kaluit nak tolak troli =P
*kalut dok pilih nak beli apa =)
*duta baharu buah anggur =P

*yg ni? duta Tesco =D
pastu yg smpat nak snap pon, atas keta jelaa =.=

*ini bukan adengan terkejut, but bru lpas bletiaq kat Abah =P

*gila pollution! asap lori mcm rumah trbakaq =.=
x habis bnyak aeh hri ni
cuma RM2++ jaa =.=

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